I have often remarked that the work I do is so simple and easy, but in reality, it isn’t. It is mentally draining, and never have I felt it more than this past week, well nine days to be exact. I knew that I would return to a backlog of paperwork. I had prepared for that, but I just did not expect everything to be such a jumbled mess. After all, management had brought in someone to help while I was gone, but it seems he has made some simple tasks a lot harder and now I find myself sifting through mounds of paper daily trying to make sense out of nonsense.
I have already worked through two off days in the hopes of catching up, and I have somewhat. However, I can feel my body slowing down and my brain isn’t clicking. Even today I had to remind myself to just slow down and take my time. I know my boss appreciates how much I completed in just the first five days, so I can give myself some breathing room. Still, I would like to get just a little more done before doing so. Maybe it’s the control freak in me or the people pleaser. Maybe it’s still the remanents of imposter syndrome. I don’t know. What I do know I that I will have to slow my pace a bit, give myself grace and take it one day at a time. Including taking a day off to just rest and recharge.