Why is so much of my self-worth tied up in what men think of me? I’ve spent the better part of the evening trying to make connections with men I know I have no future with, even though I’m with someone.

Trying to seek validation like some lost puppy. Ha! Why do I do this? Am I that lonely? Is my self-esteem that low? Or am I still basing my journey, my life on where society says I should be by now?

Why am I still holding on to people I know are no good for me? To be exact, why am I still trying to make connections where are none to be made? To be alone and finally facing demons long-buried is hard.

To be this low, again, and still trying to climb up towards the light.

Never give up right?