So far the kids haven’t noticed that my sister and I have not brought out and decorated the Christmas tree. Is it weird that I feel a little happy about that fact?

I know with them going on Christmas break, my lack of Christmas spirit house won’t last much longer, but I feel better prepared to handle it when it comes this year.

I have actually been squirrelling away candy and chocolates for them and started to buy gifts, and best of all, I don’t feel a crushing need to cry at the sight of every beautiful Christmas tree I see in stores.

Joy is a little easier for me this season it seems. I am trying not to get too excited just yet, but I am hopeful. Maybe, just maybe, if and when we decorate the tree, I will be able to join then and not sneak off to my room for a good long cry.